it is time to go.
i am trying my hardest and giving, giving, giving until my head and heart hurt and i can’t do any more, to end up in the same situations, over and over. i can’t keep saving everyone else. i’m drowing here.
edit: i am not giving up. i am doing the best that i can to see the good and light in everything, and as for the rest, i will happily leave it behind when i can get away.
at a bridal shower. I do not fit in because I don’t see marriage as the end-all to my life. I don’t like matching china sets or cookbooks. I like making my own way. I get mocked for being myself, for wearing green boots and listening to a lot of music and for knowing how to do lots of things. I get it, you’re jealous. that doesn’t mean you have to bring me down, too. drown in your negativity and normalcy and leave me the hell out of it.
